So they say that you are now an adult
Well tell it to these eyes that fill up with tears every time you say goodbye for they can only see the sweet babies God graced me with early that blessed morning.
And tell it to these hands that though they have aged over the years still know the feeling of holding you in my arms rocking, rocking.
And finally tell it to this heart that will forever have a place for you, shut off from the clanging world always chattering and squawking and saying, constantly saying.
Well let them say. For it will beat forever and say baby, my baby, you are loved no matter what they say.
Happy Birthday my Dear Twins remember 18 is what they say but Love is what I feel.
So this crazy October snow that we got has caused one of my baby birds to return to the nest for the week since her college is in a hard hit area and has been without full power since Saturday. And though it’s lovely to have her back home guess what? I got a little used to my quiet little life at home.
I call it a NaNo Whamo coming at the time when I’m in a writing frenzy and thought I had my writing plan all mapped out. It’s like last year all over again. Surely I’m thought of as a bad mom right now to be like you want to sleep where? Well, be quiet about it why don’t you! Oh and hugs kisses welcome home. Yep, I’m a giver.
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This weekend the DH, the grandparents and I got to see the DD and DS since it was parent’s weekend at the DD’s school. And after seeing her we took a quick trip and dropped things off at the son’s college too. It was great to see them both though always bittersweet now as each time we see them they have changed in subtle ways and as parents we know our babies will never be the little ones they once were. While at the DD’s school she took us on a wonderful tour of her library and showed her now favorite places to get away for quiet moments of study. I just love a library and am so glad that she does too.
I hope you all had a good weekend. My DH and I got to go and see my DS for our first parent’s weekend at his college last week. The week before I
tipped away and went to the DD’s school to take her out to dinner. I guess we are all going through our own sort of learning curve right now. Them with it’s how to get used to living in a new environment and handling school and life and things like time management without me hovering. And with me it’s just about the same. A new home environment, time management without kids to manage and getting used to life without the momsey hovering (though I do find a way from a distance). I wonder if I can get some type of tutoring for this.
Happy birthday to my wonderful, amazing, irreverent, smart, beautiful, you can clearly run out of adjectives to describe… MOM!
“A mother’s love for her child is like nothing else in the world. It knows no law, no pity, it dares all things and crushes down remorselessly all that stands in its path. “
– Agatha Christie
Love You Forever,
Kwana and the gang
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What’s Jack been up to?
The Jackster has been in a state of confusion as you can tell from this pic and his scraggly hair. Just like so many on the east coast he had to deal with the hurricane too. Did I tell you all how the DH and I accidentally locked him out on the porch during it for about a ½ an hour? Yeah, that wasn’t a good start to the first night of being without the twins. Not noticing the missing dog and all. *hangs head in shame*
And ever since then he’s been completely board with me (see over this woman) and totally looking for the kids to come home at any moment. To save him from this dull existence perhaps?
The other day I had the DD on speaker phone and she called out to Jack. He just about lost it running to the front door and barking for her to come in. I just about lost it with that one.
It’s a whole new normal for all of us right now. Jack getting used to it just being me and the DH and the DH and I getting used to each other all over again.
Still hard not to think about any minute now though.
So I’m back. Looking the same but not quite feeling the same. In the span of a week you see there was an earthquake that was felt up here in New York, I dropped my dear son off at college and then turned around and the very next day dropped my dear daughter off at college and oh there was Hurricane Irene as a topper.
To say I’m a little mentally and physically exhausted is putting it mildly. For all my big talk there was nothing to prepare me for the letting go moment. I literally did not know what to do with myself and my emotions. I tried to hold on but still the tears flowed and my heart ached like crazy.
All I can say is I feel I left half my heart in another state and I pray it keeps it well while we are separated. I let go of my two opposite twins but had the same feeling of overwhelming, pride, love and sadness and hope at the letting go momen for both of them.
This mom’s only solace is the fact that the dear twins seem of be getting along happily and making new friends which gives me so much joy. Let’s hope they have the same joy as the plunge into classes. Fingers crossed people.
Now it’s time for me to get into a good work and writing routine with the Jackster as my helpmate (thrilled as he is in his boredom).
Wish us well.
In the meantime I’ll try and Keep it Together and keep singing in my own way… melodrama over. Next week more Jackster drama. Hint I’m not on his nice list right now. Yikes!!! LOL.
Happy September!Onward and Upward. Wheeeee!!!!!
P.S. the above are pics of both as they move ahead one me with their dad into their new lives.
So this is it. The last week at home and final crunch time for the Dear Twins before heading off to college. With so much to do this week I’m going to take a little blog break so I can concentrate on my lists and check them twice and then once more for good measure. Of course true to form I started things off right this morning by reaching for the coffee and dropping a can of ginger ale on my foot. Let’s hope it’s not a sign of the week ahead.
But moving on…I’m thinking by the time I’m back here I’ll be all cried out from my double goodbyes but hopefully ready to face Life Part 3. At least Jack will still be here to keep me on my toes.
Have a good one!
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Me and the Dear Twins are feeling a little (*see a lot*) overwhelmed with the days until the college buh-bye coming faster than all we have to do.
Makes me feel like we need to slow it down and have a tea together or something to catch our breath. Not that I see us sitting so serenely, but maybe if there are cookies involved all will be well?
Note the little bear on the left, always bear (twin) griping. *headshake*
Hope you get a tea moment today.
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This has been a tragic weekend with my heart breaking for the people of Norway and today hearing about Amy Winehouse. My DD and I shared a love of Amy’s music and both had hopes for her to recover to live a happy life. Sadly, this was not to be. We shared tears for Amy and her pain.
I told both my teens how much I loved them today. Had them make a promise that I know is so hard to keep, to please stay off drugs. Pray to God for guidance always, Love and respect themselves and to use me as that voice of conscience and sounding board when times get hard, no matter how hard. I would be there. The seemingly easy way always turns out to be harder. I would love them forever.