Are you kidding me? It’s December 31st ? Really? I wonder how many more question marks I can put into this post to let you know how I feel about it being December 31st and me having to write it??? Seriously??????
For real I’ve been going around the blogs and reading everyone’s year end posts and resolutions and honestly dreading the thought of doing my own so much that it gave me a knot in my stomach and a migraine. Those of you that know me, know how I am with change and worry. All things that something like a New Year can bring angst to. So though I’ll put on the usual smile that you see everyone else wearing on this day toast and blow a horn maybe even don a jaunty cap, I’ll really just be… me.
No I don’t want to look back and reflect on the past year. The bad will only get me down and I’ll magnify it too much making it more than it was. And the good I won’t give enough credit to but I know I should because there is so much good if I really think about I’ll weep with joy way quicker than I would ever over the bad because, silly me, that bad was yesterday not today.
But today I’m still the same old me and I’m not going to look back because I won’t do that right and I’ll just get mad at myself because of all I didn’t accomplish. And I’m not going to look forward because I know I won’t do that right and I’ll just feel stress about all I have to do.
So instead I’ll just keep still and look inward and then upward and stay true to myself and be forever HOPEFUL.
I have only one New Year’s resolution that I will keep striving for ….
HAPPY NEW YEAR!