I saw something the other day that said ‘think of where you were last year‘.
It was supposed to be uplifting so I did. And you were there and for that moment I was happy.
Until I stopped and remembered that you are gone. And won’t be back again.
Now I know in this past year lots has changed. Some for the bad and as with life many things for the good. But without you it’s hard to feel that good fully. Without you I don’t know how quite how to be… just me. I’m honestly not the same.
Lost within myself. A stranger in my own mind. I know I should be better and as you would always say, ‘pull up my big girl panties’ and I promise I will with more time. But that time is not now. What is a year to a heart in pain?
Because if I were granted one wish right now, one happy thought for now… Today… It would be to go back- just a year and 1 day.